For my friends and family, especially David. Thank you for lending me courage.
Sometimes you have to admit
the only thing holding you back
But you don’t just let it go, contrary to all the advice —
oh, no! —
wrap your arms tightly around it,
crush it to your chest
and jump off that cliff anyway.
And then what?
Use it as a floatation device?:
“In case of an emergency landing,
slip your arms through the straps
and hold your fear close.”
You imagine the instructions read
in a clipped British accent.
“Keep calm and expose your vulnerable bits.
are standing by.”
But then you slowly open your tightly-shut eyes
and unclench your jaw
and see that you’ve landed —
not broken, among vultures —
but whole and welcomed by open-hearted friends,
supported by generous hearts.
You re-examine that stone anchor of fear you leapt with
and find buried within it the raw kernels